Thursday, June 14, 2007
I was feeling absolutely down yesterday.once again it was that sense of everything against me. and then i lost all mood to do anything, numbness surrounded. pretty scary actually, its been long since i emo-ed that badly.it was after yesterday that i realised how fragile i was deep inside- not in the past, but now. root cause was probably the period when i almost thronged into depression. maybe.. perhaps.. i really dunno.but my therapy? sleep and gorge. i call it the piggification method.this morning, woke and for a Mr Bean cheese pancake, a kaya mee chang kueh roll and chocolate milkshake then returned to bed till lunch time. took a slow stroll out to Upper Serangoon Road for a bowl of bah chor mee with extra meekia, char siew pao, egg tart, charsiew soh... and a deep-fried yam cake (i hate yam so i must be crazy).yea madness indulge, but it actually works for me.after all that, i'm back at home blogging here with the aircon at 17 degrees and fan blasting at full max. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. arrgh.
elaine ; always remembered
10:57 PM
