Sunday, May 22, 2005
haha todae's theme shall be my moral supports. too badd, all these are plainly one-sided moral supports; since they are my idols . im just a nobody in their lives. #01 kenn teo. 
* guitarist of lzefier* highly inspirational* fascinating composing talents* strong vocals* humble, a nobody-wannabe* a future successor of the stage* friendly* makes me wanna talk even on depression days* makes me myself#02 zax wang.
* lead vocalist of 5566* highly influential* great sense of humour* several talents; hosting/singing/dancing/endorsing/acting* makes me scream* makes me chase* makes me wanna get near without them, i cld not haf been motivated n stuffs yea. they can absolutely change my mood. though they r just my idols n mite not even give a damn about me. i gotta say they rock my life_ (and they fill up my emath book. heh :p) all these had been a dream.you brought me into it. things got so nice i found it so unbelievable. but just when i started to realise it was true, the alarm rang n i was thrown back into real life. living alone again n starting from scratch....this is life n ive just experienced it. wat ive learnt from this shattered dream:
> never to put in effort to believe in someone eva again
> never to bugg/ take initiative to talk. others will do.. one day.
> never to make mistake coz u'll only lose trust n allow someone else to gain trust
> NEVER allow urself to be brought into another dream. it only doubles the disappointment.
okay back to real life. yest i wen to my cousins house for steamboat. n i absolutely lurve their dog!
whahaha isnt she cute?
gotta meet my idol kakee later. JEANNIE! hehe. we r probably gonna idol hunt. n i bet she'll make me eat the black famous amos cookies. "let time reveal the truth" -quoted by her from someone. coz im really sad now. someone is daoing me.
elaine ; always remembered
7:50 PM
